Nerves are literally cripplingly bad for me in this game right now. Probably going to be forever deranking until this gets fixed. I have tried just about everything lol. Literally booting the game up makes me nervous. I love this game to death and I want it to be my second game but it is unfathomably difficult with this massive debuff I have. I am going to still keep playing and trying to play. Even if that just means score farming low star maps, I love this game too much to just quit. I am literally a competitive player in another game where my nerves are minimum and I am still improving and doing well, I have ZERO clue what about this game changes it. Maybe someday I will find out.

Competitive Rivals of Aether player that also loves this game (#5 in Arizona for rivals 1, #9 in Arizona for rivals 2). Banner courtesy of a power ranking for my region!

If you are also a rivals player, hit me up if you wanna join the ROA/osu crossover discord. There's more people in it than you'd think and more active than you'd think.

Almost always will be on stable, sometimes I will play lazer but will permanently have classic on with only slider acc being gone enabled. I just like the game better that way, call me bad all you want, I don't really care lol

Twitch.tv/Ash_ROA (Haven't streamed in a bit, will probably return soon)
twitter.com/ashROAosu

- Peak rank: #67,073 (September 30th 2022 rework LOL, I was around 72k-75k range in the time before the rework)

Goals (in no particular order)

- WORK ON MY NERVES PROBLEM. Like seriously, it is far and away the biggest thing holding me back on all fronts. PP plays (almost all of my top plays are just me playing through nerves), getting good plays in general, tournaments/1v1s, everything, it's all being greatly held back by this issue (by no means the only thing, but easily the biggest thing).
- Improve and be able to play stream maps (seeing some progress here but still rough)
- Improve at speed (seeing some progress here too but also kinda rough still)
- Improve on tech
- Improve on basically every other skillset (aim and a bit of alt/finger control is all I really have, I want to diversify my skillsets)
- Get better at HR (also just improve acc in general)
- Maybe learn Hidden. Idk that mod is awful (almost every silver S/SS I have is with FL lol)

PP play goals

- 100 170+pp plays
- 100 175+pp plays
- 100 180+pp plays
- 50 190+pp plays
- 20 200+pp plays
- 30 200+pp plays
- 50 200+pp plays
- A 250+pp play (I have had a few buffed to 250+ after a rework, I would like to set a 250 at the time of the play)
- A 300+pp play
- 4500pp
- 5000pp
- Top 50k maybe?
- Just general ranking up whenever possible

Completion Goals

- Complete 2007
- 10% overall completion (done in both map count and cxp/length)
- Complete everything under the following conditions: "ar>=5 ar<=6 length<=90" (1140 left)
- Complete 10%+ for every year (14/20)
- 20000 clears
- Just work towards completion as I feel like it

Score/SS/Medal Goals

- 4 digit in score
- Top 500 in SS count (As according to osu!alternative/kirino)
- 5000 SS's
- 10000 SS's
- 50B ranked score
- 100B ranked score
- 200 medals
- Just keep doing score/SS/medals as I feel like it

"Achievements"

- 5 digits: 9/8/2020
- First 200pp play: 6/3/2020 (216 on ai no sukima, no longer even remotely that high lol)
- 4 Digit in score: 4/11/2022

Score methods

(assuming the AR roughly correlates with the SR of the map in the way you would roughly expect)
- 0<=AR<=3: DTHRFL or DTHR (often depends on difficulty, length, and a couple other things)
- 3.2<=AR<=6: DTHR (though some on the lower end of that I might use DTHRFL on)
- 6.1<=AR<=8.5: DT or HR, dependent on the map (sometimes DTHR on the lower ends of this range)
- 8.6<=AR<=8.9: HR, DT (rarely), or no mod, dependent on the map
- AR>=9: No mod (unless I think I can get good acc with HR which doesn't happen much)

Playstyle

- Star G640 (full area, drag)
- Wooting uwu (idk what they are called but the other switches that come with them. Not the preinstalled ones, those are way too light lol)
- Almost full alt (I only single tap on slow stacked notes because if I alt them, I rush them for some reason)







Never forget (the perfect derank):
Part 2:
HOW DO I KEEP GETTING AWAY WITH THIS: