My body has started attacking itself pretty badly from late 2025 to early 2026. I can barely hold my pen, let alone even a mouse, or use the keyboard, or even see/hear properly. It's probably over at this point lmao. BUT I won't give up. Going to see what I can do.

I've decayed so many ranks because I randomly play in bursts, can't play for a while for some reason, and then that repeats. I don't care about rank much, just grinding out skills or maps I care about at whatever time... however, I would like to climb some ranks to actually play in tournaments for more fun.

September 2025 update: Disabled/Chronically ill, old as heck, and losing my hearing. It be like that lmao.
November 2025 update: Got my melted mousepad off my tablet after 5 years. Re-learning how to aim again lol.
December 2025 update: Me when I start losing my vision in my right eye suddenly so everything just constantly looks blurry. I haven't FC'd anything that means anything to me in around 5-6 years, but I'm going to keep grinding. Working towards HR training as well. Tourneys again soon? Also got gifted a brand new Wooting 80HE a little over halfway through the month so I guess I have that going for me lol.
January 2026 update: I played a lot this month, but near the end of the month, I started to somehow injure my right hand's index finger (really my fingers, hand, wrist, and arm somehow??) and I have some numbness going on. Could be that I was holding my pen too hard while training HR and pinched a nerve or smth. Need to get a specialist's advice I think. I was making some pretty good progress until this happened, which means I need to take a break until I figure it out lest I injure myself further.
February 2026 update: My right eye has been messing up my vision since late november/early december 2025 so it makes seeing things weird. The doctor said it's dry eye but it hasn't been getting better despite treatment. Still need to see another doctor about my arm/wrist/hand/fingers too lmao. I'm going through it, haven't been without an active health issue since last summer.
March 2026: GUYS MY VISION IS STILL BAD AND MY PALMS ARE RED CONSTANTLY HELP (I'm going to see many doctors, this is probably a massive autoimmune meltdown, this is the funniest thing I could be documenting on my Osu! userpage tbh)

I'm playing off and on when I get bored, bouncing between Taiko and Standard. I'm playing with mouse + keyboard for standard for now since my tablet got demolished by my old mousepad somehow melting on top of it.

For Osu!Standard: I really don't care much for rank in this game. Just wanna play for fun and reap the fruits of my labor in the skills I work on that I've wanted for years at this point (mainly HDHR, but some others are trickling in), and I'm doing a pretty good job climbing this mountain so far I'd like to think. Work towards your goals because you want them, not just because you want ranks, not just because you want to impress your friends or randoms. Work on improving your skill as a player for you and you alone, and be proud of what you can accomplish, and what you have the potential to accomplish.

Purged basically my entire friend list July 2019.