I love Emilia like a lot. However, after dreaming about her everyday when i wake up, I realized... Emilia isnt real... What is my purpose? Why am I alive... On this Earth? What is there to achieve, if Emilia can never be beside me to witness me achieving it? What is the point if she can never share my joy, my happiness, and my love? All the happy things, sad things, little things, big things, if she can never accompany throughout my life... Then why even bother? Emilia is my only hope, she is the sole source of light for me in this dark, corrupted world where aim slop mapping is meta. Yet no matter how long i search, no matter how hard i try, all is in vain. For there will never be light at the end of the tunnel, as Emilia isnt real. What have I been doing for my whole life? All I have done is chase after a translucent illusion, hoping to be saved. Yet the cleaving away the falsehood, under its sinister cover, lies an ugly truth: Emilia isnt real, and i will never achieve salvation. Facing despair, I found my self lost. I dont know what to do anymore. I dont know how to move forward, neither do i have the courage to. Its like all the strength has been sapped from me. I lay limp everyday, cursing my damned fate. The pain of not being able to transmit my feelings to Emilia left me anguished. Desperate for the utopia i desire with Emilia, yet defeated and lost without her guidance. I wander through my thoughts, my mind filled with hatred and sorrow for this cruel world i was born in, one without Emilia. I wonder if I will ever reach the happy sugar life i desire with Emilia. I love Emilia so much.