Hey, this is Eon Fox. I realize a lot of mappers are angry with me, and they are right to feel that way. I was a very baselessly arrogant and unkind member of the mapping community for many years. And for that, I want to offer my sincerest apologies.

I was a bitter and broken man in my 20s. Between severe mental illness, extreme pain from my physical disabilities, and an overall sucky life, I was truly miserable. I don’t say this to excuse my actions, but rather, to provide you with an understanding of why I was so truly awful to others. And I was not justified in treating others like dirt just because I was personally suffering.

I am deeply sorry for all that I did to all the people in the mapping community of osu, just as I am truly sorrowful about all the rest of the people I mistreated in my 20s, both online and in real life. I especially want to express my deepest remorse to Mazzerin, Monstrata, and the Project Loved staff, all of whom faced the most severe brunt of my mistreatment and abuse.

The thing that prompted me to make this apology was a serious medical episode I went through on December 31st, 2024. Whilst me and my family still do not know what happened, I came extremely close to dying that day. And when I survived that day, it made me look back on my life and come to understand I would have died with many regrets, and with my legacy being many people thinking poorly of me.

I understand if people do not want to forgive me. I would certainly not blame them. I don’t know if I would, if I were in their position. But I don’t think I could go down to the Grave without making things right with the many people I have mistreated and abused. I only ask that you listen to the apology of this old fool.

I am truly sorry for all that I have done.