| Ranked Score: | 310,044,880 | |
| Play Count: | 3,851 | |
| Play Time: | 94h | |
| Max Combo: | 1,108x | |
| Total Hits: | 2,696,186 | |
| Hits x Play: | 700 | |
| Replays Watched: | 0 |
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non rhythm games that have appeal that osu shares (try them out coz you might like them):
- geometry dash (music 95% mechanics games for people who want to do a lot of difficult things in a row and get a huge dopamine shot for it, as well as high intensity music at high emotional pressure + set playthrough length)
- iwbtg (90% mechanics games but these feel like actual standalone games instead of 'just' levels as part of one or 'just' training scenarios)
- kovaaks (100% mechanics game for improvement junkies)
- jrpgs (for number junkies, for people who like anime girls)
- maplestory (for number junkies)
- shmups (for people who want to do a lot of difficult things in a row and get a huge dopamine shot for it but instead of it being mechanics based it's based on concious effort to find optimal pathing or ways to percieve parts of the game, as well as high intensity music at high emotional pressure + set playthrough length)
- speedrunning (for improvement junkies who also want something to memorize and improve at by parts)
- literally anything where you are timed and the objective is to reduce the amount
- an instrument
- cs surf (for people who want to do a lot of difficult things in a row but improvement is a fair part both mechanics and pathing/routing, also turns into speedrunning after playing a map after beating it for the first time)
- celeste (base game, for people who want the feeling of doing a lot of difficult things in a row but are actually playing something where they're way more likely to eventually succeed than not)
- roguelikes (for people who want the feeling of doing a lot of difficult things in a row but aren't actually)
- the gym
- romhack nuzlockes (for people who want to do a lot of difficult things in a row and get a huge dopamine shot for it but instead of mechanics it mostly rewards game knowledge, creativity, risk assessment, and puzzling)
- yume (2)kki (for people who are the type to mass download random beatmaps from various years and enjoy most of what they see)
- gacha games (for number junkies, and people who like anime girls, and people who want the feeling of doing a lot of difficult things in a row but aren't actually
- gambling (for people who want the feeling of doing a lot of difficult things in a row but aren't actually)
- spotify (for people who like music but don't want pressure to perform)
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osu alberta discord exists dm for inv
mutualify if you want pink
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banner: dodonpachi daioujou m2
welcome to special round
a friend of one their enemy, a mirror of one their enemy, always unaware
to you, who was never here and hardly there
thank you: pumpoff, yappers, o!ab, 435, and all of the people i've met along the way, you mean the world to me
true playtime: current + ~450hrs (unsubmitted incl. practice diffs, mcosu)
if you want to compare improvement rate:
~120 hours of the 450 above (estimated from playcount) was spent relearning the game from low 6* aim (my skill level before the playstyle change was low 8* aim),
200 hours of bancho playtime was used playing for completion and/or farming medals (nov-dec 2020, august 2021, june/july 2024, aug 2025, late 2025)
general improvement truths that apply to all things, i'll update these as i find out more:
-look at people who are better than you and emulate them, reverse engineer their decisions, and why
-absorb as much knowledge as you can on anything you're interested at getting better at
-critical thinking is pretty important for decision making games
-exercising is incredibly important
-differnt activities need different approaches to learning and it depends a lot on the importance and speed of decision making. stuff like osu and other motor skills has no decision making, so you can roughly bruteforce for your desired result. there's games like league and overwatch which involve decision making but barely any time to think about a lot of them, so you need to conciously practice and isolate aspects of your play so that they become subconcious. a lot of study is simply repetition (use anki or something) and i've never tried a method for problem solving academic topics other than making a bunch of mistakes and fixing them one at a time, i haven't looked into anything more efficient for study
- practice should be consistent (day by day), it's significantly faster and more time efficient than sporadic. if you're juggling things, then extended bursts are better than doing things every few days randomly (i think).
- focus
- practice should be optimized for longterm even if it's aids and other things give better short term benefits, osu relevant examples: don't doubletap if you want to improve at speed even if it lets you place higher on lbs, play oni diffs as soon as you can in taiko even if muzus give more pp. this might seem obvious, but it's a common thing i see people doing if there's somehting like rank in a comp game on the line
- take breaks (like literally do nothing, no social media, no phone, stare at a wall) that are around a couple minutes long per hour of a session. your mind will consolidate new information when it's doing nothing else, said information is apparently time sensitive, and there's also immediate focus benefits. for osu in particular, while you might lose warmup if you do those mid session, you should still take a break after the session
- anterograde interference is a thing that exists and has only been recently documented, basically you cannot do similar (or directly opposite) actvities in the same ~6 hour timeframe or your head will retain significantly less, some paper has it at 0.5x at max effect. i'm still not sure to what extent and what counts as similar, but osu! and kovaaks directly interfere anecdotally (even though i play tablet!), and an example directly used in a paper had opposite memorization tasks conflict
- geometry dash (music 95% mechanics games for people who want to do a lot of difficult things in a row and get a huge dopamine shot for it, as well as high intensity music at high emotional pressure + set playthrough length)
- iwbtg (90% mechanics games but these feel like actual standalone games instead of 'just' levels as part of one or 'just' training scenarios)
- kovaaks (100% mechanics game for improvement junkies)
- jrpgs (for number junkies, for people who like anime girls)
- maplestory (for number junkies)
- shmups (for people who want to do a lot of difficult things in a row and get a huge dopamine shot for it but instead of it being mechanics based it's based on concious effort to find optimal pathing or ways to percieve parts of the game, as well as high intensity music at high emotional pressure + set playthrough length)
- speedrunning (for improvement junkies who also want something to memorize and improve at by parts)
- literally anything where you are timed and the objective is to reduce the amount
- an instrument
- cs surf (for people who want to do a lot of difficult things in a row but improvement is a fair part both mechanics and pathing/routing, also turns into speedrunning after playing a map after beating it for the first time)
- celeste (base game, for people who want the feeling of doing a lot of difficult things in a row but are actually playing something where they're way more likely to eventually succeed than not)
- roguelikes (for people who want the feeling of doing a lot of difficult things in a row but aren't actually)
- the gym
- romhack nuzlockes (for people who want to do a lot of difficult things in a row and get a huge dopamine shot for it but instead of mechanics it mostly rewards game knowledge, creativity, risk assessment, and puzzling)
- yume (2)kki (for people who are the type to mass download random beatmaps from various years and enjoy most of what they see)
- gacha games (for number junkies, and people who like anime girls, and people who want the feeling of doing a lot of difficult things in a row but aren't actually
- gambling (for people who want the feeling of doing a lot of difficult things in a row but aren't actually)
- spotify (for people who like music but don't want pressure to perform)
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osu alberta discord exists dm for inv
mutualify if you want pink
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banner: dodonpachi daioujou m2
welcome to special round
a friend of one their enemy, a mirror of one their enemy, always unaware
to you, who was never here and hardly there
players
current influences:
a fantasy
past influences:
shimon cookiezi dereban sawada wantprinzthighs
people frequently on the same leaderboards as these players
anyone i have added
a fantasy
past influences:
shimon cookiezi dereban sawada wantprinzthighs
people frequently on the same leaderboards as these players
anyone i have added
mapping
: )
nowadays influences: attendant (overmapping), taiko (overmapping), kovaaks aim trainer (placements)
past influences: jieusieu, no dap, koiyuki, raikozen
nowadays influences: attendant (overmapping), taiko (overmapping), kovaaks aim trainer (placements)
past influences: jieusieu, no dap, koiyuki, raikozen
goals
play pp
100pp try this 98.4% FC 114pp
150pp hitorigoto (yuki no youni hb 1x miss) 2018 november/december
200pp quaver fieryrage 2019 january, 201pp (second highest was 159pp btw)
250pp heart no atoaji 3x miss august 2019, 269pp (second highest was around 240pp on wonda stella i think)
300pp can do kagami sightread december 2019, 309pp (second highest 298pp)
350pp get back sotarks january 2020, 354pp (second highest was 314pp btw)
400pp dropout sotarks june 2020, 401pp
450pp save reform may 2021, 467pp (way too late)
500pp w/ dt tsunagaru connect june 2021, 502pp
500pp w/ hr UNRANKED glorious crown (october 2022)
500pp nomod UNRANKED 540pp flower dance (april 18 2023)
550pp slowmotion february 2022, 598pp
600pp dreams come true may 22 2022 (retroactive) 615pp
650pp distinguished dec 19 2024, 657pp (first unranked was sidetracked on 4/10/2023)
700pp Pure Ruby april 4 2025, 769pp
800pp UNRANKED (zetsubou plantation 895pp, jan 25 2025)
900pp UNRANKED (hinamiosu, in dec 2025)
1000pp
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overall pp
good job me
1000pp may 5, 2018 (rank 261k)
2000pp ???? (prob somewhere in mid-low 100ks cuz 2600pp was 5 digit)
3000pp feb 8, 2019 (rank 72k)
4000pp june 8, 2019 (rank 47k)
5000pp sep, 10, 2019 (rank 26k)
6000pp jan, 17, 2020 (rank 15k)
7000pp jul, 3, 2020 (rank 8.5k)
8000pp feb, 25, 2021 (rank 5.3k)
9000pp june, 21, 2021 (rank 3.3k)
10000pp april, 4, 2022 (rank 1.7k)
xexxar happened between this time
11000pp( coz or csr, retroactively, sometime in 2022)
12000pp may, 21, 2025 (rank 2k)
13000pp jan 15, 2026 (rank 1.5k)
14000pp UNRANKED september 2024 (rank 531 (if ranked))
15000pp UNRANKED (..probably in 2025))
16000pp UNRANKED (march 2026)
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rank
top 100,000 some time in september - november 2018 2.6k pp, got here with multi before main in one month :flushed:
top 50,000 8/june/2019 4k pp
top 25,000 14/sep/2019 5.1k pp
top 10,000 25/mar/2020 6.6k pp (secured on 30/march/2020 meaning i am not gonna decay out ever)
top 5,000 10/mar/2021 8.1k pp
top 2,500 19/aug/2021 9.4k pp (secured shortly after)
top 1000
top 500
top 500 canada (rank 11.3k) intially on feb 29, 2020. secured on march 25, 2020
top 250 canada (rank ~5.5k) got it some time after the rework
top 100 canada(rank 2.1k)
top 50 canada
500pp w/ hr UNRANKED glorious crown (october 2022)
500pp nomod UNRANKED 540pp flower dance (april 18 2023)
1000pp
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overall pp
good job me
xexxar happened between this time
14000pp UNRANKED september 2024 (rank 531 (if ranked))
15000pp UNRANKED (..probably in 2025))
16000pp UNRANKED (march 2026)
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rank
top 1000
top 500
top 50 canada
thank you: pumpoff, yappers, o!ab, 435, and all of the people i've met along the way, you mean the world to me
inactive...
it seems like my head is forcing me to move on... something happened to me irl, and since then i've suddenly stopped thinking about the game, i suddenly stopped wanting to play, i get bored quickly when i try anyways, and i suddenly have no inspiration to map when it came so easily before, compulsively even. there have been periods where other things have captured more of my attention than this, but not where my head stopped paying attention. this feeling is also a familiar one... if my head is the same as it was, this is probably where i take a step back
maybe i'll have an urge to come back, but it's dormant right now..
assuming this may be the end, i believe i'm satisfied, i did just about everything i ever could've wanted to do... and i don't believe there will ever be anything that will replicate the feeling of the journey. my passion for the game, the friends i made, the emotions i felt... they were all real. i don't think i'll ever experience anything quite like this again. i love this game to bits, i will never forget this game and the people part of it, and i will treasure this part of my life forever
it was truly an amazing time!!
maybe i'll have an urge to come back, but it's dormant right now..
assuming this may be the end, i believe i'm satisfied, i did just about everything i ever could've wanted to do... and i don't believe there will ever be anything that will replicate the feeling of the journey. my passion for the game, the friends i made, the emotions i felt... they were all real. i don't think i'll ever experience anything quite like this again. i love this game to bits, i will never forget this game and the people part of it, and i will treasure this part of my life forever
it was truly an amazing time!!
true playtime: current + ~450hrs (unsubmitted incl. practice diffs, mcosu)
if you want to compare improvement rate:
~120 hours of the 450 above (estimated from playcount) was spent relearning the game from low 6* aim (my skill level before the playstyle change was low 8* aim),
200 hours of bancho playtime was used playing for completion and/or farming medals (nov-dec 2020, august 2021, june/july 2024, aug 2025, late 2025)
general improvement truths that apply to all things, i'll update these as i find out more:
-look at people who are better than you and emulate them, reverse engineer their decisions, and why
-absorb as much knowledge as you can on anything you're interested at getting better at
-critical thinking is pretty important for decision making games
-exercising is incredibly important
-differnt activities need different approaches to learning and it depends a lot on the importance and speed of decision making. stuff like osu and other motor skills has no decision making, so you can roughly bruteforce for your desired result. there's games like league and overwatch which involve decision making but barely any time to think about a lot of them, so you need to conciously practice and isolate aspects of your play so that they become subconcious. a lot of study is simply repetition (use anki or something) and i've never tried a method for problem solving academic topics other than making a bunch of mistakes and fixing them one at a time, i haven't looked into anything more efficient for study
- practice should be consistent (day by day), it's significantly faster and more time efficient than sporadic. if you're juggling things, then extended bursts are better than doing things every few days randomly (i think).
- focus
- practice should be optimized for longterm even if it's aids and other things give better short term benefits, osu relevant examples: don't doubletap if you want to improve at speed even if it lets you place higher on lbs, play oni diffs as soon as you can in taiko even if muzus give more pp. this might seem obvious, but it's a common thing i see people doing if there's somehting like rank in a comp game on the line
- take breaks (like literally do nothing, no social media, no phone, stare at a wall) that are around a couple minutes long per hour of a session. your mind will consolidate new information when it's doing nothing else, said information is apparently time sensitive, and there's also immediate focus benefits. for osu in particular, while you might lose warmup if you do those mid session, you should still take a break after the session
- anterograde interference is a thing that exists and has only been recently documented, basically you cannot do similar (or directly opposite) actvities in the same ~6 hour timeframe or your head will retain significantly less, some paper has it at 0.5x at max effect. i'm still not sure to what extent and what counts as similar, but osu! and kovaaks directly interfere anecdotally (even though i play tablet!), and an example directly used in a paper had opposite memorization tasks conflict
old userpage...
and so, i am happy
i like playing OSU
like 15000pp if ranked idk
.. outdated, i dont know what this is now
commissions:
lowest UR ever: 39.3
lowest UR in an actual map: 54.6
area = 50x28.125
people who have really made my time on osu worth cherishing:
- the people i've met through #osu, via the irc, dms, discord, or even by pure accident and coincidence
- the people who talked about mapping with me
- the people from osu!ab
- the people who originally knew me as cake filling
- the ones who i befriended in a twitch stream
- the one from when bloodbath was #1
- the people i met through these people above
for making my time on this game worth every single second, thank you all so so much!!! <3
Do not read below this line. Nothing is of your interest.
((2024 edit: this was my shit in 2021 idk))
Ranked | highest sr fc 7.89*, highest sr ss = 6.99* (od10.44), highest sightread fc = 6.66*
Unranked | highest sr fc 7.93* (542pp)
!! DT PLAYER ALERT !!
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putting this down so I don't forget, a game about a sword that can instantly kill anyone and gives the owner ridiculous powers in an otherwise realistic modern irl scenario (Crazy I know.)
if you read this i hope you find what you're looking for out of this game
these are all outdated i don't care anymore
scores/osu/3727021147 best score
https://imgur.com/a/CGursYo 2nd best score (i fc'd the entire end)
https://i.imgur.com/IvrDkdi.jpg le stonehenge
https://imgur.com/a/YcCH62h i suck at hr
HIDDEN IS LAME IS SHIT!!!!!!!! firetruck HIDDEN!!!!!!!!
area: 117.5mm x 73.68 mm
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osu is whatever you want it to be
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https://imgur.com/a/gKYn8pV
1k hours - #3230, #155 country, 9050pp (ppv2), 8102pp (delta), 63,874 playcount, 15,796,606 hits
1150 hrs 2400 114 9300pp 9000 delta 74k pc 18.7 hits
1370 hrs 1400 76 10500 10200 delta 93k pc 23.5 hits
im delta player now :gasha:
mouse player until September 20th 2019, peak mouse rank was 21.1k with around 5300pp, 298pp (now 300pp) top play on natsukoi hanabi
my current mouse skill ~ 6000pp becoz i have 300pp consistent
rank 9999 (march 25 2020)
around a year later (may 30 2021)
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goals for 2021:
450pp play (may 4)
500pp play (june 21)
450pp play (delta) (june 18)
500pp play (delta, unranked) (december 11)
5k (mar 11)
2k in delta 
(dec 11)
8000pp (feb 25)
9000pp (june 21)
10000pp (?) (NOT HAPPENING)
8000pp (delta) (june 21)
9000pp (delta) (december 11)
(these are only realistic if i become a speed player XD)
I did become a speed player.
goals for 2020:
i'm gonna get all of this shit before april at my rate lmao
psa: i didn't
goals for 2020 #2
i thought most of these were unrealistic but i actually got super close XDDDDDDD
personal note You are a beast An anomaly A Force of Nature
long term goal:
rank astrofarm and get away with it
I love every female vocalist but nanahira equally <3
osu is a 4 step cycle
1. improvement
2. consistency
3. PP
4. Dogshit
<3
i like playing OSU
like 15000pp if ranked idk
.. outdated, i dont know what this is now
lowest UR ever: 39.3
lowest UR in an actual map: 54.6
area = 50x28.125
people who have really made my time on osu worth cherishing:
- the people i've met through #osu, via the irc, dms, discord, or even by pure accident and coincidence
- the people who talked about mapping with me
- the people from osu!ab
- the people who originally knew me as cake filling
- the ones who i befriended in a twitch stream
- the one from when bloodbath was #1
- the people i met through these people above
for making my time on this game worth every single second, thank you all so so much!!! <3
ramblings.. for the people who are really interested in me..
4/21/2025|monday 12am
god bless my friends
10/8/2024 | tuesday 12am
i wonder if i'll ever find something like 2021 osu again, i don't feel that strongly driven to improve at _anything_ anymore. it's at a point where i figure i'll be miserable (read: bored) for the rest of my life if i don't find something similar. improving isn't that fun when the task at hand feels fruitless
06/01/2024 | 8am on a saturday morning
mapping as a form is like my ultimate expression of love towards this game, so i wonder why i feel so much disdain towards it now. because of my nature as a human being, i've thought extensively about it. i've studied a lot of mappers, taken reference from people i look up to blah blah blah. point is, i cared a LOT. as a result of rigorous study (not really lol), i've come to realize the ultimate fruit of knowledge. the truepill. the holy grail of mapping.
that is: a completely braindead monkey can make something fun because osu's inherently fun and the only way to make it not fun is to make it annoying. as someone who has vocally complained about farm maps and maps that poorly represent the song since they were a new player, this the opposite conclusion. bland stuff is boring, only good stuff is fun. what happened to change me so drastically? well, a couple maps happened: shall we (a literal metronome to cross screen jumps) and what made me write this, mirai circuit. mirai circuit is basically completely randomly and arbitrarily mapped in the kiais. the only concious choices were to make it look like and play an old dnb map. i accomplished just that pretty much as well as i could for the amount of effort i put in, and the result was something that to me, as a player, has the exact same illusion and feeling as 'proper dnb' maps. the idea came to me after playing my old renatus map and thinking 'damn this last kiai is really fun' and wondering if i can fabricate fun. it was a complete success! i can fabricate my own idea of fun, and i can do it damn well. this isn't a boast post, i think the implication is interesting: fun mapping has no connection to the song, maps playing 'interesting' also have nothing to do with the song and is basically just aiming for 'predictable but not too much'. what's even the point of all of the theory when all of it's irrelevant? just do what's expected and add some zazzle. boom. huge map
11/13/2023 | 7am on a monday morning
im about almost at the same skill level that i was at before i switched to my new grip... never really realized how good i was. aim is reading? to an extent yeah. improvement is faster with good reading. it took me 5 months to get from 6.6* aim to 8.2* aim after having gotten to 8.5 aim before. But regardless,your performance is still mostly based in muscle memory. also now stand by the opinion that nearly every player from rank 4000 to top 20 is a similar skill level. the only stand outs are good at aim.
4/18/2023 | after playing terraria with fallenphoenix
i still stand by the importance of luck, but recently i've made a few ""revelations"" that make me wonder if most people are really trying very hard? are the top players just casual players who happened to get lucky? that honestly does seem really likely to me. this seems like a basic fact, but if you play 3 hours a day every day for 2 years, you will have somewhere close to 2200 hours of playtime. that's as much as most of the current top players, and most of them have played for 4+ years! now, osu probably deflates your "true" playtime by a fair bit and additionally doesn't count offline/unsubmitted play, but that makes me think. do most people just suck at "playing more"? the holy gospel of osu? i'm starting to think that the vast majority of the playerbase, including the ones that are """improvement focused""" flat out suck at the most important thing: dumping time into the game. it takes around 2-5 seconds for you to be able to play a map after you retry it. if you multiply your playcount by that number, that's a shocking amount of time spent only on retries! as of writing this, i have 110000 playcount not including unsubmitted play. 110000 * 3 = 330000 seconds. this is a staggering 93 hours!!!! 1/16 of my time spent playing osu is spent waiting for a retry to start! that's absolutely crazy! that's not even all of where time can be wasted. there's 1. breaks in maps 2. time spent in song select 3. time spent unfocused on the game during a period of a session. there's a LOT of time flat out completely wasted in a person's time in the game. It's no wonder a top player who has played for 5 years has an average of 45 minutes a day! from this point onward, i'm intentionally making all of my own sessions way more efficient: no discord, minimal retrying, rush song select and pick any random map. the only breaks are for stamina recovery, and maybe a 3 minute break hourly. i'm curious to see how it goes!!!
1/24/2022 | i was probably emotional over somethign
i probably own everything i value in my life to this game currently, this is the only game i find truly enjoyable, the people I've met in this game are the only friends I've had for the last 5 years, everything I've learned about my other interests indirectly comes from this game. I even learned how to improve at things from this game, as i was a clueless kid with no competitive drive. (from mapping, not at all from playing) perhaps the most important thing I've learned is the sheer importance of luck in an individual's success though. while this initially may give the impression that i don't believe in the value of hard work, from another perspective it lets me enjoy the company of other people without any genuine prejudice. if nobody really chooses who they become, then what's the point of seeing them differently? this mindset that I've always unconsciously have had has let me enrichen the friendships i have and make them so much more valuable to me, as i never ever consider an individual's accomplishments or talents in what i think about them. if you're even reading this, I'm probably your friend and it's true! i don't actually care about you as a player, i care about you as a person. you might ask, what's the point of trying? the point of trying is to find out why you care about things at all really. despite thoroughly hating every aspect of competition, competing in osu is one of the most most important things I've ever done. competition teaches you the realities of the world. competition teaches you how to value yourself and others and what they do. competition forces you to accept all of what happens
god bless my friends
10/8/2024 | tuesday 12am
i wonder if i'll ever find something like 2021 osu again, i don't feel that strongly driven to improve at _anything_ anymore. it's at a point where i figure i'll be miserable (read: bored) for the rest of my life if i don't find something similar. improving isn't that fun when the task at hand feels fruitless
06/01/2024 | 8am on a saturday morning
mapping as a form is like my ultimate expression of love towards this game, so i wonder why i feel so much disdain towards it now. because of my nature as a human being, i've thought extensively about it. i've studied a lot of mappers, taken reference from people i look up to blah blah blah. point is, i cared a LOT. as a result of rigorous study (not really lol), i've come to realize the ultimate fruit of knowledge. the truepill. the holy grail of mapping.
that is: a completely braindead monkey can make something fun because osu's inherently fun and the only way to make it not fun is to make it annoying. as someone who has vocally complained about farm maps and maps that poorly represent the song since they were a new player, this the opposite conclusion. bland stuff is boring, only good stuff is fun. what happened to change me so drastically? well, a couple maps happened: shall we (a literal metronome to cross screen jumps) and what made me write this, mirai circuit. mirai circuit is basically completely randomly and arbitrarily mapped in the kiais. the only concious choices were to make it look like and play an old dnb map. i accomplished just that pretty much as well as i could for the amount of effort i put in, and the result was something that to me, as a player, has the exact same illusion and feeling as 'proper dnb' maps. the idea came to me after playing my old renatus map and thinking 'damn this last kiai is really fun' and wondering if i can fabricate fun. it was a complete success! i can fabricate my own idea of fun, and i can do it damn well. this isn't a boast post, i think the implication is interesting: fun mapping has no connection to the song, maps playing 'interesting' also have nothing to do with the song and is basically just aiming for 'predictable but not too much'. what's even the point of all of the theory when all of it's irrelevant? just do what's expected and add some zazzle. boom. huge map
11/13/2023 | 7am on a monday morning
im about almost at the same skill level that i was at before i switched to my new grip... never really realized how good i was. aim is reading? to an extent yeah. improvement is faster with good reading. it took me 5 months to get from 6.6* aim to 8.2* aim after having gotten to 8.5 aim before. But regardless,your performance is still mostly based in muscle memory. also now stand by the opinion that nearly every player from rank 4000 to top 20 is a similar skill level. the only stand outs are good at aim.
4/18/2023 | after playing terraria with fallenphoenix
i still stand by the importance of luck, but recently i've made a few ""revelations"" that make me wonder if most people are really trying very hard? are the top players just casual players who happened to get lucky? that honestly does seem really likely to me. this seems like a basic fact, but if you play 3 hours a day every day for 2 years, you will have somewhere close to 2200 hours of playtime. that's as much as most of the current top players, and most of them have played for 4+ years! now, osu probably deflates your "true" playtime by a fair bit and additionally doesn't count offline/unsubmitted play, but that makes me think. do most people just suck at "playing more"? the holy gospel of osu? i'm starting to think that the vast majority of the playerbase, including the ones that are """improvement focused""" flat out suck at the most important thing: dumping time into the game. it takes around 2-5 seconds for you to be able to play a map after you retry it. if you multiply your playcount by that number, that's a shocking amount of time spent only on retries! as of writing this, i have 110000 playcount not including unsubmitted play. 110000 * 3 = 330000 seconds. this is a staggering 93 hours!!!! 1/16 of my time spent playing osu is spent waiting for a retry to start! that's absolutely crazy! that's not even all of where time can be wasted. there's 1. breaks in maps 2. time spent in song select 3. time spent unfocused on the game during a period of a session. there's a LOT of time flat out completely wasted in a person's time in the game. It's no wonder a top player who has played for 5 years has an average of 45 minutes a day! from this point onward, i'm intentionally making all of my own sessions way more efficient: no discord, minimal retrying, rush song select and pick any random map. the only breaks are for stamina recovery, and maybe a 3 minute break hourly. i'm curious to see how it goes!!!
1/24/2022 | i was probably emotional over somethign
i probably own everything i value in my life to this game currently, this is the only game i find truly enjoyable, the people I've met in this game are the only friends I've had for the last 5 years, everything I've learned about my other interests indirectly comes from this game. I even learned how to improve at things from this game, as i was a clueless kid with no competitive drive. (from mapping, not at all from playing) perhaps the most important thing I've learned is the sheer importance of luck in an individual's success though. while this initially may give the impression that i don't believe in the value of hard work, from another perspective it lets me enjoy the company of other people without any genuine prejudice. if nobody really chooses who they become, then what's the point of seeing them differently? this mindset that I've always unconsciously have had has let me enrichen the friendships i have and make them so much more valuable to me, as i never ever consider an individual's accomplishments or talents in what i think about them. if you're even reading this, I'm probably your friend and it's true! i don't actually care about you as a player, i care about you as a person. you might ask, what's the point of trying? the point of trying is to find out why you care about things at all really. despite thoroughly hating every aspect of competition, competing in osu is one of the most most important things I've ever done. competition teaches you the realities of the world. competition teaches you how to value yourself and others and what they do. competition forces you to accept all of what happens
yearly goals
goals for 2022
top 2000 march 1
3 digit (top 1000)
top 500 ?
(assuming no major reworks)
10k pp
11k pp
600pp play
650pp play
700pp play
goals for 2021:
450pp play (may 4)
500pp play (june 21)
450pp play (delta) (june 18)
500pp play (multiple unranked + 550pp ) (december 11)
5k (mar 11)
2k in delta (dec 11)
8000pp (feb 25)
9000pp (june 21)
10000pp (?) (NOT HAPPENING, MAJOR REWORK)
8000pp (delta) (june 21)
9000pp (delta) (december 11)
(these are only realistic if i become a speed player XD)
I did become a speed player.
goals for 2020:
i'm gonna get all of this shit before april at my rate lmao
psa: i didn't
goals for 2020 #2
i thought most of these were unrealistic but i actually got super close XDDDDDDD
3 digit (top 1000)
top 500 ?
(assuming no major reworks)
11k pp
600pp play
650pp play
700pp play
goals for 2021:
(dec 11)10000pp (?) (NOT HAPPENING, MAJOR REWORK)
(these are only realistic if i become a speed player XD)
I did become a speed player.
goals for 2020:
4 digit350pp playget back sotarks (jan 12)400pp playdropout (jun 28)- fc more yuiko and nico nico shit
i'm gonna get all of this shit before april at my rate lmao
psa: i didn't
goals for 2020 #2
i thought most of these were unrealistic but i actually got super close XDDDDDDD
7.5k pp- 5k global
dt 400pp(NOT hidamari)- (hd)hr 400pp
- 450pp
- 500pp?
inspirational players
ryuk
mathi
dereban (singletap)
xilver
hvick225
ilmeria
sawada
wantprinzthighs
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
dawnsday (inspo to start playing speed )
anyone i have added
i mostly like players who have a similar skillset to me but are better at it
i also like people who worked exceptionally hard for their skill or otherwise dumped a ridiculous amount of time into the game
mathi
dereban (singletap)
xilver
hvick225
ilmeria
sawada
wantprinzthighs
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
dawnsday (inspo to start playing speed )
anyone i have added
i mostly like players who have a similar skillset to me but are better at it
i also like people who worked exceptionally hard for their skill or otherwise dumped a ridiculous amount of time into the game
mappers i like
i like mostly generic mappers
me :^)
jieusieu
kotachi
dksslqj
fycho
rizia
log off now
no dap
skystar
monstrata
reform
nevo
shizuku-
nathan
kowari
silky (old)
sotarks (old)
mappers i like as a player
Me.
2015 mappers
firetruck browiec maps
I hate sharp angle spam unless it's mapped by me
me :^)
jieusieu
kotachi
dksslqj
fycho
rizia
log off now
no dap
skystar
monstrata
reform
nevo
shizuku-
nathan
kowari
silky (old)
sotarks (old)
mappers i like as a player
Me.
2015 mappers
firetruck browiec maps
I hate sharp angle spam unless it's mapped by me
mappers that influenced me
raikozen: how 2 make maps make sense
jieusieu: aes
no dap: aes
log off now: aes
fycho: jump patterns
monstrata: jump patterns
sotarks: rhythms
my mapper friends
jieusieu: aes
no dap: aes
log off now: aes
fycho: jump patterns
monstrata: jump patterns
sotarks: rhythms
my mapper friends
scores i want in order of difficulty
i started this at 7-8k pp
beatmapsets/46936#osu/146372 +DT 97% (this play is basically the same thing imo)
beatmapsets/1048854#osu/2229845 +DT FC i did equivalent score
beatmapsets/445983#osu/959882 +DT FC (am i competent at speed?) i did equivalent score (i will only fc this when delta comes)
beatmapsets/908729#osu/1896448 +DT FC i did equivalent score
beatmapsets/613403#osu/1294194 (or any 500ppconsistency burst/aim map) +DT FC i did equivalent score
[s]beatmapsets/1180255#osu/2461085 (or any 8* aim map) +DT FC (now on stage)
beatmapsets/241526#osu/557821 (or any 500pp dnb burst map) +DT FC
beatmapsets/836856#osu/1754395 (or any mostly speed 500pp) +DT FC w/97% (dmc is close enough)
beatmapsets/52203#osu/161787 (or any other 500pp 270bpm speed play) +DT 95% (dmc is close enough)
beatmapsets/93523#osu/252238 FC (or any 600pp speed play) finished...
beatmapsets/728405#osu/1537817 (or any other aim/burst 700pp) +DT FC
beatmapsets/901755#osu/1882794 (or any 240bpm aim/stream play 700pp+) +DT FC
beatmapsets/929705#osu/1941712 +DT FC (am i good at aim?) (I will not quit until i fc this :3)
beatmapsets/1108263#osu/2316176 (or any 280bpm speed play worth pp) +DT 97% finished...
beatmapsets/720882#osu/1522329 (or any other aim/burst 800pp) +DT FC
beatmapsets/395149#osu/860022 (or any other super finger control speed play worth pp) +DT FC
beatmapsets/1107950#osu/2315558 (or any other aim 900pp) +DT FC
beatmapsets/807850#osu/1695382 (this is not happening) +DT 95% FC
beatmapsets/1044333#osu/2183206 +DT FC
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[s]beatmapsets/1180255#osu/2461085 (or any 8* aim map) +DT FC
beatmapsets/241526#osu/557821 (or any 500pp dnb burst map) +DT FC
beatmapsets/93523#osu/252238 FC (or any 600pp speed play) finished...
beatmapsets/728405#osu/1537817 (or any other aim/burst 700pp) +DT FC
beatmapsets/901755#osu/1882794 (or any 240bpm aim/stream play 700pp+) +DT FC
beatmapsets/929705#osu/1941712 +DT FC (am i good at aim?) (I will not quit until i fc this :3)
beatmapsets/1108263#osu/2316176 (or any 280bpm speed play worth pp) +DT 97% finished...
beatmapsets/720882#osu/1522329 (or any other aim/burst 800pp) +DT FC
beatmapsets/395149#osu/860022 (or any other super finger control speed play worth pp) +DT FC
beatmapsets/1107950#osu/2315558 (or any other aim 900pp) +DT FC
beatmapsets/807850#osu/1695382 (this is not happening) +DT 95% FC
beatmapsets/1044333#osu/2183206 +DT FC
o///o
Do not read below this line. Nothing is of your interest.
((2024 edit: this was my shit in 2021 idk))
Ranked | highest sr fc 7.89*, highest sr ss = 6.99* (od10.44), highest sightread fc = 6.66*
Unranked | highest sr fc 7.93* (542pp)
!! DT PLAYER ALERT !!
disrespect list
tourney derankers (Actual ones, If you think you aren't you probably aren't.)
people who cannot observe the people around them
people who ego others for 0 reason
people who don't do shit to get what they want
people who blame things before trying
if you fall under this category gc
people who cannot observe the people around them
people who ego others for 0 reason
people who don't do shit to get what they want
people who blame things before trying
if you fall under this category gc
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putting this down so I don't forget, a game about a sword that can instantly kill anyone and gives the owner ridiculous powers in an otherwise realistic modern irl scenario (Crazy I know.)
if you read this i hope you find what you're looking for out of this game
these are all outdated i don't care anymore
scores/osu/3727021147 best score
https://imgur.com/a/CGursYo 2nd best score (i fc'd the entire end)
https://i.imgur.com/IvrDkdi.jpg le stonehenge
https://imgur.com/a/YcCH62h i suck at hr
HIDDEN IS LAME IS SHIT!!!!!!!! firetruck HIDDEN!!!!!!!!
area: 117.5mm x 73.68 mm
vns i've read
- aokana
- riddle joker
- sanoba witch
- summer pockets
- the entire ace attorney series :d
- riddle joker
- sanoba witch
- summer pockets
- the entire ace attorney series :d
my thoughts on genetics and talent in Osu and their importance
The game.
When the imposter is sus.
Lookin' a little fussy!
When the Sotarks 1-2.
Slam the fart! forsenJoy
merami go Brrrr
White doable
White Chungable
White Chungus Doable
Chungusable
Chungable
Pemomoable
Pepelow
Pepepisslow
I just whitefarted!
I Just whiteshit My pants!
I think theyre important!
Whitepissing
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
The game.
When the imposter is sus.
Lookin' a little fussy!
When the Sotarks 1-2.
Slam the fart! forsenJoy
merami go Brrrr
White doable
White Chungable
White Chungus Doable
Chungusable
Chungable
Pemomoable
Pepelow
Pepepisslow
I just whitefarted!
I Just whiteshit My pants!
I think theyre important!
Whitepissing
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
Pepedeath
The game.
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osu is whatever you want it to be
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https://imgur.com/a/gKYn8pV
1k hours - #3230, #155 country, 9050pp (ppv2), 8102pp (delta), 63,874 playcount, 15,796,606 hits
1150 hrs 2400 114 9300pp 9000 delta 74k pc 18.7 hits
1370 hrs 1400 76 10500 10200 delta 93k pc 23.5 hits
im delta player now :gasha:
mouse player until September 20th 2019, peak mouse rank was 21.1k with around 5300pp, 298pp (now 300pp) top play on natsukoi hanabi
my current mouse skill ~ 6000pp becoz i have 300pp consistent
rank 9999 (march 25 2020)
around a year later (may 30 2021)
playstyle
- tablet+keyboard (x+c) player who played with mouse for about 450 hours
- singletap
- dt
- fast bursts and jumps
- my area is chungusbig
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goals for 2021:
(dec 11)10000pp (?) (NOT HAPPENING)
(these are only realistic if i become a speed player XD)
I did become a speed player.
goals for 2020:
4 digit350pp playget back sotarks (jan 12)400pp playdropout (jun 28)- fc more yuiko and nico nico shit
i'm gonna get all of this shit before april at my rate lmao
psa: i didn't
goals for 2020 #2
i thought most of these were unrealistic but i actually got super close XDDDDDDD
7.5k pp- 5k global
dt 400pp(NOT hidamari)- (hd)hr 400pp
- 450pp
- 500pp?
- fc more yuiko hr and nico nico shit
personal note You are a beast An anomaly A Force of Nature
long term goal:
rank astrofarm and get away with it
I love every female vocalist but nanahira equally <3
osu is a 4 step cycle
1. improvement
2. consistency
3. PP
4. Dogshit
<3
Year
Summary
Scores
Collections
Most Played
Beatmaps
Medals
Recent Medals
Rarest Medal (0.00%)
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227 / 352
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Beatmap Challenge Packs
1 / 7
Beatmap Packs
35 / 80
Beatmap Spotlights
5 / 22
Hush-Hush
59 / 70
Hush-Hush (Expert)
43 / 64
Mod Introduction
13 / 13
Skill & Dedication
71 / 96
